Deborah James was overcome with emotion as she discussed having ‘hard conversations’ with her two children about her death.
The 40-year-old You, Me, And The Big C presenter, who was diagnosed with bowel cancer in 2016, revealed on Monday that she is now in end-of-life hospice care at home, surrounded by her loved ones.
‘I have a really loving family who I adore and couldn’t… they’re just incredible,’ Deborah said of her husband, Sebastien Bowen, and their children, Hugo, 14, and Eloise, 12.
‘And all I knew I wanted was to come here and be able to relax, knowing that everything was okay,’ she continued as she wept.
‘We’ve had some really, really hard conversations in the last week. You think, gosh, how can anybody have those conversations and then you just find yourself in the middle of them.’
Deborah had tears in her eyes as she talked about her children growing up without her.
‘I know, because I trust my husband – he’s just the most wonderful man and so is my family and I know that my kids are going to be more than looked after and surrounded by love,’ she added to BBC Breakfast.
‘You always want to know as a mother, are your kids going to be okay?
‘And my kids are going to be fine, but it doesn’t mean I’m not going to miss every chance that I could have had with them.’
Deborah is now at home with her family focusing on making her comfortable so she can have the ‘best quality death’ that she can.
On Wednesday, she shared her disbelief after learning her cancer fundraiser has surpassed £2million in just two days.
‘Thank you for your generous donations,’ Deborah said. Thank you for helping me build a future where we can [show] Cancer who is boss.
‘We have brilliant, enthusiastic talent in this country- let’s support them to do the best job they can to give more people more time living.’