Ed Sheeran has stated that he ‘didn’t want to live any longer’ following the deaths of his closest buddy Jamal Edwards and close mate Shane Warne, as well as learning that his pregnant wife had been diagnosed with a tumour.
Edwards, the 31-year-old music entrepreneur who launched the music website SBTV in 2006, which helped start Sheeran’s career, died in February 2022.
His death occurred shortly after Sheeran’s wife of four years, Cherry Seaborn, was told by physicians while six months pregnant that she required surgery for a tumour that couldn’t be performed until after the couple’s second child was born.
While Seaborn carried Jupiter to term and underwent successful surgery in June, Sheeran, 32, said he felt’so powerless’ at the time.
Meanwhile, Sheeran said he was out for dinner with Taylor Swift and her boyfriend, actor Joe Alwyn, the night before Edwards died, and was texting Edwards about plans to make a video the next day.
The global pop star added: ‘Twelve hours later, he was dead. My best friend died. And he shouldn’t have done.’
He continued to Rolling Stone magazine: ‘I felt like I didn’t want to live any more. And I have had that throughout my life.
‘You’re under the waves drowning. You’re just sort of in this thing. And you can’t get out of it. I’ve always had real lows in my life. But it wasn’t really till last year that I actually addressed it.’
Sheeran stated that as a parent, he was “very ashamed” by his obviously “selfish” ideas, and that it was Seaborn who figured out what was going on and that he consult a therapist.
‘No-one really talks about their feelings where I come from. People think it’s weird getting a therapist in England.’
However, the chart-topping singer-songwriter shared that he thinks it’s ‘very helpful to be able to speak with someone and just vent and not feel guilty about venting’.
Sheeran, who admitted to dabbling in drugs after the age of 24, claimed he would “never, ever, ever touch anything again” after a coroner found that Edwards’ death was caused by narcotics.
‘That’s just disrespectful to his memory to even, like, go near,’ he stated.
Around the same time frame, Sheeran won a high court fight when two composers claimed his 2017 hit Shape of You infringed on the copyright of their song Oh Why, and another buddy, Australian cricketer Shane Warne, died in early March 2022.
Sheeran has stated that food and alcohol have been difficult for him, and that he stopped drinking heavily a few months before the birth of his first daughter, Lyra.
He went on to say that he felt “self-conscious in any case,” but that working around singers with “great bodies” like Justin Bieber and Shawn Mendes made it worse.
‘So I found myself doing what Elton [John] talks about in his book, gorging, and then it would come up again,’ he said.
Sheeran, whose latest album is named – (subtract) is due for release on May 5, also claimed he has five more albums utilising another category of symbols, intending the last in the series to be published ‘when I die’.
He also stated that he has a finished album with reggaeton singer J Balvin with no release date in sight, that he has written a song for the next season of Ted Lasso, and that he would appear in an upcoming Disney Plus docu-series.
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Source My Celebrity Life.
